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The Way I Am Now

Amber Smith

The anticipated sequel to the internationally bestselling TikTok sensation The Way I Used To Be.

There was a time, the darkest of times, when Eden thought the only person who could save her was Josh. He was everything that was good in the world – a trusting heart, a loving touch, a kind smile. But he was never meant to be her saviour. Eden had to do that on her own. Now Eden has started college and faced up to her rapist, it seems like they might finally be in the right place at the right time to make a relationship work. But as the trial that will determine if Eden gets the justice she deserves looms, opening unhealed wounds, can their love withstand the pressure?

  • Publication date: November 7, 2023
  • ISBN: 9780861546824
  • RRP: £8.99
  • Pages: 384
  • Publication date: November 7, 2023
  • ISBN: 9780861546831
  • RRP: £5.99
  • Pages: 384


Praise for The Way I Used To Be:

‘A poignant and painfully honest survival story about the aftermath of trauma. Amber Smith weaves Eden’s narrative with a deft, empathetic touch that doesn’t shy away from difficult truths. This is a courageous, necessary, and beautiful book.’

Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces

‘A raw novel that’ll stay with you long after you finish.’


‘Amber Smith’s talent is immense.’

L.E. Flynn, author of All Eyes On Her

Amber Smith

Amber Smith is the New York Times bestselling author of the young adult novels The Way I Used to Be and The Last to Let Go. An advocate for increased awareness of gendered violence, as well as LGBTQ equality, she writes in the hope that her books can help to foster change and spark dialogue surrounding these issues. She grew up in Buffalo, New York, and now lives in Charlotte, North Carolina, with her partner and their ever-growing family of rescue dogs and cats. You can find her online at

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